Ab-solute honesty..

Hi all ,

Well , this is the first time I have EVER written a BLOG , a total new thing for me to expose my thoughts etc. Okay so to cut the fat I'll get to the muscle of my idea....(how you like that for an opening line!! lol)
Right so I've decided that not only am I aiming to create a new physique , but I will maintain it . I am hoping to drop between 8-10kgs before the end of Feb . I will be logging everything on my page and these blog rooms for all to see and comment ,all advise is welcome! Ive tended to me bit undisiplined at times and im signing up to this Blog buisness to have a public commitment and to remind myself what i want out of this. As a competitor in tae-kwondo , i always make weight , but i am not at my optimum as i do rapid weight loss tricks starting weeks before , and days before its sauna and steam and running ridiculous amounts and not eating enough , and i am weak and cold...not a clever plan at all...i KNOW... but i would do anything , any measure to make sure I dont miss my weight. I'm not in denial and I am at an appropriate weight for my height ( 173cm) I am aware that i COULD compete -70kgs but I do not enjoy it and it alowws mne to be lazy and not disiplined enough.Aswell as I am not satisfied with my image...ever ... neever have been. So ive decieded I'm 21 and I have to start making a move.... I've never worn a bikini and terrified at the thought , and mortified when forced to wear a ....yes...a ONE PIECE... me and the mums at the side of the pool! ugghh i Cringe , and want to hide at times.. To be honest I have a social "disorder" if you will...will you? hehe! I call it that because I get so image conscience that I would rather saty inside and not go out because i'm not feeling i look acceptable enough , or asthetically pleasing. I know it sounds sick minded but it is the truth. I eat well , but maybe too well at times , I train hard and love to socialize , so i find it hard to see where i go wrong...so thats why i'm submitting my day to day routines etc on this so as i can get anyones advise to help but to sleep this head reck of mine and allow me peice of mind , and body confidence. I will post pictures and video of my sessions and would love to hear from anyone who has extra tips .

Looking forward to this as a way of life , not just temp fix. I want this life and its in me , just too many lipids are hiding it! :P

Signing out of my first HONEST blog of many,

Conway